I keep looking out the window, peering through the black screens as best I can, trying to take in the view to take my mind off the drive. But I end up watching for the trucks ahead of us and the cars coming towards us. The desert is still stretched out alongside us, so there is really nothing to see, but I can’t take my eyes off the road, the vehicles that scream past us.
It’s a highway, not the kind chocked full of cars, not a highway running through the centre of town, but a highway that links two major areas. A highway that carries a steady stream of cars, buses and trucks. All travelling at equally high speeds.
Or maybe I just feel like we’re going really fast, because I’m anxious about our driver spending so much time on his phone.
At one point we slow down, as trucks and cars line each side of the road. Vehicle drivers are out of their cars standing around, chatting along the roadside. There’s been some kind of incident. Our driver winds down the window and chats to someone in Arabic as we pass by.
On the right-hand side, up ahead, I see an ambulance and then a black minivan with a smashed windscreen and dents and scratches along three sides.
A car accident.
But even that doesn’t slow our driver, give him a moment’s pause. As soon as we’ve moved past the black minivan, and cleared the vehicles lining the road, his foot is back on the accelerator.
We’re speeding along the highway.
Again.
A truck pulls out in front of us, as a car travelling in the opposite direction moves towards us. We slow, edge past both.
Our driver takes off. And within minutes, he’s back on the phone. Calmer now but still talking with his hands, the odd thump of the steering wheel.
We’re not giving him a tip, I think to myself, and I’ll be sending a complaint to the tour company that organised this trip.
And I’m trying to be empathetic to the problems he’s clearly facing, trying hard not to be a back seat driver or to wince every time I look out the window.
But we’re driving at 107 kilometres an hour through a sandstorm in the desert. Visibility is low and there are trucks and tourist vans at every turn.
Meanwhile beside me, Adrian calmly sits editing photos, showing me his photos from Morocco, from the Sahara.
A different kind of desert, where the journey felt much more calm.
Meanwhile, I’m on the lookout for a service station, somewhere we can stop for a hot chocolate. Somewhere I can get out of this car and still my nerves, if only for a moment.
I keep thinking of the words to a song my former boss told me about before I left my last job – “A hundred bad days makes a hundred good stories, a hundred good stories make me interesting at parties” by AJR.
I’d rather feel comfortable now than interesting.